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Redemption

By Joshua Allen

Dear Birth Parent,

Hey I know it wasn’t your fault for having your kids taken away.  That damn social worker bitch what’s her name – she’s the real criminal.  What’s a little tweaking anyways?  You’re a good parent, the kids love you don’t they?  They always say it when you ask.

And that judge!  Who the fuck is that SOB to tell you that you need to be drug tested?  The hell with those dirty tests!  It’s the God damn system that destroyed your family.  That judge is paid a big hunk of change to rip families apart.  They all make money from messing with you.

And that mother-of-all-fights the two of you had that night.  God was that a bitch of a fight or what!  You were both messed up good remember?   But you gave as good as you got.

But the kids weren’t touched, so what’s the big deal? God Damn neighbors ratting to the cops, I bet you know which one too.  Always so nosy, asking about the kids.  Who the hell was she to offer to take care of them?    Why can’t people just mind their own fucking business!  Lots of people do worse and they still have their kids, so why you?

They should go after the real criminals.  You know the freaks that do those unspeakable things to their kids?  You’ve never did anything like that.  Neither did babydoll;… well he said he didn’t.  Pricks, it was all lies.  The middle girl was always trouble.  Why did they make her lie?

What did those county assholes say?  The allegation was substantiated?  Unsubstantiated?  Who the hell knows?

He should be getting out of the joint soon anyways.  And yeah they said he’s got to stay away but they can’t really be there all the time.  Man do you miss babydoll…

You love your kids, why can’t they see that?  Okay so you shouldn’t have missed those visits.  Especially the youngest ones birthday.  Anyways she’s just 3 so she doesn’t really care about such things.  But yeah, you shouldn’t have told her you’d be there, but you’ll make it up, you always do.

But why is the older one so angry?

Damn foster parent!  Who the hell is she to say you can’t talk to your kids when you call any time, day or night.  She’s poisoning them against you!  That’s why they’re so angry.  They’d probably be back with you by now if that lady hadn’t been speaking smack about you to that bitch CSW.  And don’t get started again about that excuse for a human being.

Okay, it probably wasn’t too smart to yell at her those times, especially when you need your kids back.  I mean you admit it, that wasn’t too smart.

But can’t they see how much the kids love you?  How they cry when it’s time for you to leave the one hour weekly visit at McDonald’s?

What’s the foster parent so mad about anyways, so you missed a few visits when you were supposed to be there – the kids ate real good didn’t they?  They love McDonald’s.  You took them there almost every day when you had money before losing that job for tweaking during the lunch break.

Man that shit is gnarly, and yeah it was uncool to use before the baby was born.  But you know better now.  Next time you’re pregnant you’ll do it right.  You’ll have the kids back too.

They need their mommy.  Especially the baby.  She’s got all sorts of problems but you’ll take her to the best doctors.  You still got the Medi-Cal card, you never lost it.  Doesn’t that prove something?

Anyways all that’s behind you.  You’re barely using these days, not for a couple of days anyways.  And you are taking your parenting classes.  Haven’t missed a single one and you have the papers to prove it.

The judge said you’d get the kids back soon if you could just string together a few clean tests and your grandmother gets a bigger place.  That’s what your mom did when you were a kid and you and your brothers came back home after a few months.

And when your babies come home it will be different this time.  You and babydoll will do it right.  No more partying.  No more tweaking.  And you’ll be a happy family this time.

Or not.

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